On March 23, 2015, Kate created a profile on OkCupid.

Some 200 opening messages later, she's been on a whopping 4 dates.

Kate likes women. That feeling does not appear to be mutual.

Clearly, she's doing something right.

Each post is an excerpt of a message this seemingly inexorable self-saboteur has sent, backdated to its original send date.

More of the same is guaranteed.

But It's Not Enough, It's Not Enough

"I'm trying to write this message in time with Clearest Blue by CHVRCHES, but I can never type during the first half of this song, because I know what's yet to come.

There's a term pilots use called "severe clear," when the sky is at its truest, infinite blue—seemingly endless visibility.

Can you imagine hitting play on this song while taxiing down the runway, forward motion pressing you into your seatback. On other side of the window the world starts rushing by, less than three quarter inches of paneled plexiglass separating you from the blur of tarmac beneath the wheels—engine turbines settling into that consistent whine, that sensation of time standing still. And then the plane lifts off, weight of gravity overcome. And in that precise second, the base drops... and up and up you go.

Up into the clearest blue.

Wouldn't that be the most beautiful feeling?"

It Was Well Put Together At Least

Figures